Thursday, February 16, 2006
today was another tiring day at work..with tt big one coughing non-stop in such close proximity was really torturous..feeling her breath down my neck was really disgusting..=X now..i'm sick again..oh manx. it's back. again. coughing non-stop. difficulty swallowing stuff coz of the terribly painful sorethroat..-sighs- it juz sucks manx. i cough till even my ears are painful alr lor. n i'm being scolded by my parents for being sick. u think i like being sick meh? =( so understanding. -_- n they claim i'm doing an easy job at the call ctr. ok lor. wadever u say. shit manx.
i'm juz so troubled these days over everything..everything is juz not right! i cant say anything here..or rather i dun dare to..so the only thing i can do is to keep everything to myself..n run to the toilet everytime i have the urge to cry. i'm a coward la. i dun dare to face reality. i didnt expect things to turn out this way! i tot she promised that it'll nv happen? wad a deception. i feel damn cheated manx. all i can do is act as if nth happened, smile n act happy. woOohOo~ wish me luck manx..but i feel damn tortured when i smile..oh manx..so shitty.
as usual, vday was a sian diao day. haha. no date as usual lor. unwanted manx. hahahaha..
nowadays sometimes when i'm doing sth, i'll juz suddenly feel so restricted.. erratic mood swings manx. i think i needa relax. rid myself of everything. but how to?! wa lao..and can my parents stop quarrelling for a minute?! i need peace!! n everytime my dad is pissed, he'll beat me. shit him. he juz beat me again. i really had enough of everything! i hope i still can tahan. wa lao eh.
i finally understand how cruel life is. it's so ironic and shitty. God help me. i seriously need some comfort. |
