let me declare tt i'm oficially bored to tears. *sighs*
i guess it's juz a way of life that ppl become more n more hypocritical as they grow older. they try to hide their true feelings, keeping everything to themselves. i, for one, can stand it when ppl keep stuff to themselves. i oso dun understand y. oh wells. sometimes it's like when u really cant stand someone, u pretend to smile at tt person when u see him/her ard. so fake lorx. hmm.. is this part of the growing up process to0?
co prac last fri was kinda torturous.. i was falling asleep hugging my zhongruan lorx.. actually my heart wasnt qt there at the prac oso.. was yearning to go have fun at the halloween party.. oops.. =p my fri was qt fei4.. official lessons ended at 10am.. coz mrs che ponned bio tut.. haha.. n mrs kay said there was no gp lessons.. got my gp paper from her.. kinda disappointed la.. coz i actually hoped tt i cld get a b3.. ok.. maybe i set my hopes too high alre lorx.. =x hm.. was initially playing cards at ta34 with jane, yanrong, liyun, weilin, therese, mich n karin.. suddenly jane's phy teacher "ezlink" came in lorx.. i practically jumped out of my chair.. haha.. so paisehx..
after tt me n yanrong migrated to co room.. saw veevee there.. haha.. she was practising her gz.. then me n yr was slacking.. haha.. the co room was qt small u see.. so me, yr, wl n therese sat at the inside of the door to play bridge. haha.. nearly got heart attack on several occasions when the door juz suddenly opened.. haha.. after lunch, all the others went for lessons ma.. so i prac-ed zr a while.. fingers hurt lehx. then yr came back in after a while.. played 2 person bridge.. haha.. thanks to weibin for teaching me how to play last time..=p suddenly the door opened again.. haha.. shocked us.. it was lijun ah ma.. haha.. we started playing daidee after she went down n helped us buy food.. haha.. thanks ah.. n she's the only person who bothered to knock b4 she came in.. haha.. reduce shock lvl.. =p after a while, alvin appeared.. he supposedly wanted to study gp.. but ended up 4 of us played bridge.. haha.. co room=gambling den.. after alvin left, jianyue came.. haha.. got another shock la.. coz the door like opened without any sound.. haha.. then 4 of us played bluff instead. jianyue's idea la.. haha.. lame game but kinda fun.. =) when we were having fun, suddenly mintze walked in.. haha.. me, ah ma n yanrong helped to move the timpanis to lt5.. haha.. it was tiring no doubt.. but surprisingly i felt happy helping to carry them lehx.. weird horx? haha.. a form of exercise oso ma.. =p the 3 of us oso arranged the chairs for dazu at lt5.. haha.. there was a stack of 10 chairs at the back of the stage ma.. then i stupidly asked ah ma to help me carry them up the stage(u know behind lt5 coz a few steps ma..) haha.. we had a hard time manx.. then the uppermost chair was very high ma.. so i climbed onto the table in order to be able to bring tt chair down.. so lame.. but funny.. n after tt we realised we didnt need that many chairs.. dotx. haha.. =p
went for the halloween party after co prac with vicks, xiu, huiboon, nan, yingxiu n a few others.. haha.. the haunted hse was not bad la.. can see a lot of effort put in in doing the props.. haha.. i screamed a lot in the process but after i came out of it, i tot it was qt lame.. haha.. i oso dunno y.. but i tot it was successful coz it managed to scare me.. haha.. =p as for the haunted trail ard the sch.. tt one ah.. erm.. maybe it's coz i know the way ard the school too well alre.. so i wasnt tt scared.. qt duh la.. yups..when the guy said the most scary place is the school crest, in my mind was full of "dotx".. haha.. maybe coz that place is so near co room n i feel kinda at home at that place.. haha..
anw..was listening to rvco de chang cheng last nite.. was touching lorx.. i wonder when njco can ever reach tt standard manx.. or can it ever do so in the first place? dunno lehx. guess it requires tons of hard work n dedication lorx.. haha.. so i guess i muz go prac on my zhongruan more.. wa.. which means more torture on my fingers..[sorry fingers.. =X muz ren3 kx?] it's like sometimes i prac till very pek chek coz i cant seem to get some stuff correct.. haix. i think i need a teacher.. shall talk to tek abt hiring a tanbo teacher.. think we really need one lorx.. gaohu is so much easier.. i dun mean it's easy.. but maybe it's coz i got more experience in the hus lorx.. dunno lehx.. ok.. shall not talk so much.. shall conc on pracitising my zhongruan.. determination will lead to achievement de. muz jiayoux ah!! everyone muz jiayoux too kz? =)
my dad juz said i think i'm very smart. wad can i say? i've nv tot tt way at all la. argggghhhhhhhh. but i've no strength to talk back alre.. too tired. in fact, i've always tot i'm stupid. oh well. wadever they say. i dun wanna care anymore. from now on, i will try my best to protect myself from being hurt by other ppl. y shld i let myself be vulnerable? no point in doing so. no point at all. i'm not one to be bullied. i warn u, dun ever try ur luck on this.
i miss exco0304...
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